words baby, it’s all about the words

Happy last day of 2012 beautiful people!

It’s insane to think of all that has happened this year. Clearly 2012 was the test of my ability to keep my sanity.

All I can say is to you 2012 is…

“Bwahahahaha 2012! Eat my dust! I survived and you can kiss my lilly white butt!”

My sanity is still in tact! Albeit just, but that’s just a technicality!

I’ve said it before, I’m not one for resolutions. To me, ‘new years resolutions’ are words that sometimes make you feel like you are a failure if you don’t succeed in sticking to them.

I’m not a failure. And I don’t think anybody should put pressure on themselves to be bound by a new years resolution for a whole 365 days. People change and grow every day. What may be ‘you’ at the beginning of the year, may not be you at the end of the year.

So I have words instead.

2011 was my year of “Calm & Pause” – 2012 “Faith & Laughter”

Every year two more words. Every year I am mindful of them words. Every year I cannot fail to succeed at a resolution, but I can grow as a person.

I laughed a lot this year. Humour is good for the soul, laughter even better.

For a while though, I found myself buried in a hole unable to escape the negative and laughter was nowhere to be found. But I dug through it and told negative it could kiss my arse. I bitch slapped that negative to the curb. And damn it felt good!

Laughter crept back into my life. ‘Snort’ laughter with it, with a twist of ‘strangled chook’ sounding laughter too.

It feels good to laugh again.

I came close to losing Faith in anything as well. Faith in myself, my decision, my worth. The people around me reminded me of the good that faith has in your life. You can’t ‘be’ if you don’t have faith in something.

One night in the depth of sadness I was reading back on my blog, and realised having Faith in people was a key. People surround us every day. You learn from them, you look up to them, they inspire you. So I focused on my kids. Being what they needed me to be, and in turn giving them what they needed to be given. Faith.

I’ve grown as a person this year. I’ve found the me that I lost, I’ve found a few other things too that I never thought I would find. A friendship that’s grown,
an extra kid… and I found my voice.

Next year I’m still going to be mindful to Laugh, and I’m going to work on having a bit more Faith.

Because it’s all about the words, they make us who we are.

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