You know how sometimes life goes all bitshitcrazy and all you can see is the negative, and it sucks you down as far as it can, and you use all the strength in you to kick that mother away and drag your sorry arse back to the top to breath again and be free of the fucked up batshitcrazyness… Finishing off with one big arse bitch slap to make sure you’ve kicked that negative arse to the curb?
Yeah that. Right now that’s me, and my blog. I’m going all bitch slap on my blogs arse.
I’m kicking negative to the curb and getting my Ogre back on. Shit has been sucky, my blog has been sucky. Negative got all up in my face and took over like a bad smell. The time has come for one big arse bitch slap.
Lose Your Shit Friday is gone. Bitch slapped. Twas negative, had to go.
Life is so much more than reminding myself of all the shit that pisses me off and drives me insane. I’m not saying I won’t have a big old whinge about the teenagers, that’s unavoidable. I have three of them, as of tomorrow I’m back to four – plus the two littlest Ogres. Obvioulsy I will lose my shit sometimes having six kids. Only natural, and normal. I’m not the perfect Mother, never in my life have I claimed to be.
I watched a movie last night called Blood Diamond starring Leonardo DiCaprio and Djimon Hounsou. Have you ever seen it? If you haven’t, I recommend you do – be warned it is a very intense graphic movie about the things you probably don’t know about Africa. I nearly turned it off right at the beginning, I could see it was going to be one of them movies that slaps you hard in the face with the reality of so many people in the world.
But I watched. Because my reality is heaven compared to theirs, I needed a slap in the face to remind me how lucky I am. I needed a slap in the face to wake the fuck up to myself and be grateful for everything I have. The sound sleep I have in my bed. Knowing my kids go to school and learn things that will eventually get them jobs to support themselves when they are older. I don’t have a fear of someone coming and dragging my kids away teaching them to kill, or the fear of my daughters being raped and shot just because they are girls. I know my water is safe to drink. I have food in my cupboard, even if sometimes I look at it and think I don’t. I do.
It’s time to embrace the laughing. To enjoy the moments that I’ve been so lucky to be given.
Negative can kiss my arse, I have no time for it anymore. Positive can pop up wherever it wants any time of the day or night. I’ll see it, acknowledge it, and soak up every lucky moment I am given with it.
Because not everyone in the world is lucky like me. I may be poor by western standards but I am so much richer than anybody I know.
As of Friday the Things I Know meme will be living here at Saturday Morning Ogre Mum. I know lots of shit, and a lot of it positive – and that makes having Things I Know living here a positive. So come join in on Friday and let me know what you know.